How does it feel?

I've got this ache in my heart, because life is pretty hard sometimes.
You want to be happy, and you want your loved ones to be happy too.
Friendship isn't easy, it's something you have to work on, something that you have to build and keep with trust.
So when you meet someone that you like and he likes your best friend, there's not too much to do: you keep your friendship safe, because even though you need love, friendship is much more important than some random guy you meet and happen to like. Nevermind he can be the love of your life, if your friend likes him too, you have to step aside and be gracious about the whole thing, because in your friend's happiness lies you own.
So this is how it feels. It feels like you loose something that you've never got but it was a possibility at some moment. It feels like your best friend is feeling like shit because she likes the guy that you like. It feels like a punch in the face and a blured stare because tears are forming in the corner of your eyes. But mostly it feels like a big ol' joke from life, God or destiny or however you wanna call it, because you can't always get what you want but it would be nice to get it just ONE FUCKING TIME!!!
Oh, well... Not today.